joselley*

boooooooo
no one tree hill until may 2nd.
oh crap.
but the search for the next doll is a good substitute.
but not good enough to replace one tree hill

in other news
very excited to go to the philippines.
it's been like 11-12 years
can't wait to see my cousins.
wooohoo family reunion!!

that's all for now suckers

you know it frustrates me that you tell people that you 
told us that our friendship did mean something and that what we told them was a lie.
but honey you were the one who sent the email and it's written in plain english
you were the one who said that our friendship meant nothing to you anymore. 
here's the truth. from your e-mail.
All I ask, give me 1 reason to keep this friendship going... OTHER THEN WE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR SO LONG because that doesnt mean anything to me anymore
and i am not twisting any words. can you honestly tell me that what is written up there IS NOT saying that friendship meant nothing? that up there is what you told me and the other girls. 
and what you're telling people is a lie.
this is how i express my thoughts and feelings.
that's all.

VACATION 2007!
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PHILIPPINES!!!
excited much? yes i am. it's been a long time. can't wait. 



oh and changed my layout. sucks? 
yes i know.
toodles my noodles

oh sweet computer with internet!
i've been lost without you. it's only been a 4 days but seriously it was getting to me.
i realized how dependent i was with the computer and internet. i couldn't talk to anybody.
no one could reach me. i couldn't watch my japanese dramas. but thank goodness for cyrus.
he fixed the computer. :) and now i am using it. just sucks that we have to share music. but whatever.
moving on. OHH-EMM-GEE i miss OTH. i want to see it soo bad. but i'll see it again. soontimes i hope.
it's 3:33am. i think it's time to sleep. can't wait for what's in store for today :)

haven't blogged in a week.
time to do a little recap.
well monday, went out for ms. lorraine's birthday.
i finally met the infamous sheldon.
dinner was tres great. jenny and i will need to another outing for dinner. and it is a must.
tuesday. girls day in at charnella bella's place :)
it was great. i just enjoy seeing everyone again. catching up with everyone. especially heart-to-heart talks. i also bought my first lottery ticket since i turned eighteen. and i won three dollars. it's not much but it's something :).
wednesday was ash wednesday, meeting at anthony's house. it was good. uhm. watched me some one tree hill. but i missed like the last ten minutes because mommy dearest had to get her beauty sleep. but man was this episode good. haley is hormonal to the max. you know i can't help but think that dan is up to no good. something wrong with that due i swear!
thursday. slept in. and man was i beat. did a little television watching.
friday. stayed home with my sisters. then my phone went stupid. the dial tone was full of static. and we couldn't talk to anybody and vice versa due to the stupidness of the phone.
saturday same thing. phone was messed up until 30 minutes ago. oh i also went to church :)

...and
tomorrow is a new day :)

i am serious english freak. but as you can tell my sentences and grammar and whatnot is not the greatest. and it would make any english freak... well freak. but whatever :)

yesterday was the bomb-diggity.
hung out with lorraine at sq1. we shopped. tried on clothes.
and had a good time. we bumped into people that we'd least expect.
but it was the greatest surprise yet. tons of young people were there. all because it was a pa day. but whatever. build-a-bear was fun :) we felt like little kids. but i swear that store was extremely fun. the thing is i ended up taking something from their store. BY PURE ACCIDENT! when we dressed up birthday bear. we had a package of stuff to put on her. and then we decided to use something else so i guess i put one of the items in my bag and didn't notice. well i found it when i got home oops :)hahaha while we were waiting in line to pay for the bear. there was an young 14-year-old english boy waiting to pay for an item. then his english friend comes up to him. telling him how embarrassing it is to have a friend that is in build-a-bear. in his exact words, *english accent*"dude this is embarrassing! a 14-year-old boy in a build-a-bear workshop. this is for little kids!" me and lorraine were laughing. we were like. "uh hello we're 18 and 16. i still find this fun." but the dude was still ragging on his friend. what a dude. anyways. our adventures were fun.  although trying on clothes is a nightmare. "the girls" did not like to try on tops. they just don't want to. stupid girls.we went around the mall i think 3 times. but it was worth it. but the ride home was LONG. it took us 2 hours to get back to home. when i got home i was spent. i was supposed to go out again to simon's thing in sauga i was supposed to get a ride but i didn't have jammin's number. oops =/ i might see them again today. i hope simon's thing was the bomb-diggity.  can't wait for today. debut day :) i'm off to get ready :)

surprisingly night school was cancelled yesterday because of the snow. so woot woot!

and i got do all of the three things i had wanted to do yesterday.
watch:
1. season finale of beauty and the geek
2. ONE TREE HILL
3. all the sappy love movies. from valentines day

i got my parents to change the time block to 10:00 so now i can watch the FULL HOUR of one tree hill. wooohooo i loved the episode. and damn i never knew rachel went to so many schools but serves her right for being a slutty whore. and damn i never knew haley had that in her. woohoo go haley. after missing a lot of episodes due to time block and parents sleeping early. i was shocked to see stephen coletti as brooke's new love. i was more shocked to see mouth give up his virginity to that dumb clean teen. but whatever. i was EXTREMELY SHOCKED at the end. when they showed nathan's sex tape with.. get this BROOKE! next week is prom woohoo can't wait

beauty and the geek. i love how nate gave up his chances of winning 250Gs to teach ceci a lesson. and honestly, if ceci wasn't his partner he would've won. actually i think everyone won because they all gain the knowledge that there is more to people than appearance. that they are more than just the beauty and more than just the geek. :)  can't wait for next week. i want to know who got married and how they've changed since then. :)

peace out monkeys

ok quick blog before i return to my cleaning.
tomorrow there are many events happening.
1.season finale of beauty and the geek.
2.one tree hill
3. it's the day of la-la-la-love. VALENTINE'S DAY

sadly, i don't have anyone really special spending valentines day with me. but that's cool.
i can't wait for tomorrow. just cause i get to watch all the sappy love movies
i am a sucker for those movies.

anyways. this is taken from my friend bjorn. i love how he writes and i think this really funny and true. and i think it's fits for the occasion.

 

LAST THING....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY EXTREMELY COOL AND TALL FRIEND SIMON PIETA :)

Do boys or girls have life easier & why? 
- depends on the situation

If your best friends would be 100% honest, would you really like that? 
- some things are better left unsaid...sometimes

Strict teacher who taught a lot or a fun who didn't? 
- strict teacher. in the long run you learn so much more.

If you could travel into past, where would you go? 
-i wouldn't really know

Can you be trusted with secrets? 
- yes

What moment from ur past would u capture on video? 
- hmmmm.. there are a lot of moments.

The person u dislike most: name something good about them. 
- i don't know i don't pay attention to their lives

If you could be invisible, what's the first thing you'd do? 
- play a prank on someone

Did you ever get in a mess for telling a lie? 
- yeeeah

Pill to make you braver or one to make u smarter? 
- i don't need a pill to make me braver or smarter.

Would you rather more love or presents from ur parents? 
- love is worth more than material things

Would you take offer to kiss a crush for $250 in front of ur class? 
- hell no kissing  your crush is something you do privately not because there's $250 on the line.

Did you ever mess up a relationship? 
- yeah.

If u could choose one perfect talent, what would it be? 
- to be able to do public speaking

Uniform or choose ur own clothes in school? 
- depends. but i'm so used to uniform that i prefer it over my regular clothes.

Are you in a hurry to grow up? 
- not really

If you had to change lives with a friend for a day, who'd u pick? 
- my best friend charnelle. i would like to experience being EXTREMELY smart for one day.

What is one thing you'd change about ur parents? 
- hmmm..

Math or English? 
- both.

Science or History? 
- history

Gym or Health? 
- gym and health sort of fall in the same category

Bring or buy lunch? 
- neither

Bus or drive to school? 
- public transit

Ever been heartbroken? 
- yeah

If so, r u healed? 
- taking it one day at a time

What is the best quality u got from ur dad? 
- i have no idea yet

Best quality u got from your mom? 
- i don't know

Worst from dad?
- no idea

Worst from mom? 
- I dont know

Who are you closer to: mom or dad? 
- I have my moments with both. So it's hard to say.

Does your family approve of your bf/gf? 
- no boyfriend

Would you pick your siblings as friends? 
- sure all my siblings are like my friends. most days.

What are three most important qualities in a friend? 
- respect, humour, honesty

What is ur best summer memory of 2006? 
- hanging out with my friends

Are your grades as good as they should be? 
- hopefully

What are you most proud of having done? 
- getting my life back together

Last time you told your parents you loved them? 
- uhm?

Last time they told you? 
- uhm?

Would u eat a spider to meet ur favorite celebrity? 
- i'm not that desperate to meet a celebrity

If u found a purse with lots of money, what would u do? 
- find out who it belongs to and return the money.

When is last time u laughed at urself for doing something silly? 
- right now

If you could change one thing about your looks, what would it be? 
- uh. something

One thing about your personality? 
- i can be fun and energetic or shy

Would u choose to be the most attractive, the smartest, or most athletic? 
- can i be all three?

What do your friends like most about you? 
- Ask them...

If it could be that someone adored u, who would u pick? 
- i dunnno

What's the best trick u played on someone? 
- uh?

Best birthday you ever had? 
- every birthday was special

In opposite sex, PREFER blonde or brunette? 
- brown

PREFER light or dark eyes? 
- doesnt matter

PREFER long or short hair? 
- short

Would you accept braces? 
- yeah

Would you accept glasses? 
- yeah

Would you date outside your race? 
- yeah why not?

Would you date someone taller? 
- I prefer someone taller

Someone shorter? 
- Not tooo short.

Someone overweight? 
- hmm

Someone underweight? 
- hmmm

Would you date someone who wanted to wait a long time for sex? 
- absolutely. that way i know i won't be pressured to have sex haha

Believe in love at first sight? 
- nope

What grade are you going into? 
- UNIVERSITY in september :)

Is your bf/gf in same school? 
- my boyfriend does not exist

# 1 quality (besides looks) in a bf/gf is.... 
- good personality ... I think

Do you get lots of offers to hook up? 
- no

How often do you do it? 
- do what?

How old were you with first love? 
- uhm..

Do you miss that person or still with them? 
- i miss him sometimes.

What do you think is the hardest thing about growing up? 
- hardest thing was learning that nothing ever stays the same. screwing up your life can mean all your friends leaving you behind

Best thing to do when you feel sad? 
- Cry it out. or listen to music or talk to a friend

Anything that scares u even though u know there's no reason to be afraid? 
- SHADOWS! watching tv till 2 in my living room. and then turning out the lights. fack man stupid shadows

Ever blamed for something you didn't do? 
- yeah ALL THE TIME. living with 3 other sisters. it's EVERYDAY!

What was your biggest failure? 
- not graduating with my friends

Would you rather repeat a grade in school OR gain 40 lbs? 
- i'm repeating grade 12 and it's been the best thing that has ever happened to me

What do you dislike most about yourself? 
- things

Best thing about school? 
- i'm more focused

Worst thing about school? 
- stupidity with all the students

If you got too much change in a store, would you tell them? 
- Probably not.

What really gets on your nerves? 
- Many things

What's most important lesson you have learned? 
- Everything happens for a reason.

If u could read ONE person's mind, who would u pick? 
- hmm..

--Your Favorite--
Hair Color: black/brown
Eye Color: brown
(Their)Music Genre Preference: hillsongs,random
Height(estimate): 5"2 +
Age: 18
Personality Type: type of guy who just knows what to say/joker but knows when to be serious/sweet but not clingy etc. etc.

--This or That--
Older or Younger: older
Romantic or Horndog: romantic
Smart or Stupid: smart!
Fat or Skinny: in the middle 
Skinny but Muscular or Big and Muscular: skinny but muscular
Punk or Preppy: preppy punk
The Big Picture or the Little Things: the little things
Flowers/Candy or Big Expensive Present: nothing expensive
Mixtape or Burned CD: burned cd
Love or Lust: love
Emotional or Just Not: not an OVERsentisitve guy yet does shows emotion
Sincere or Jokester: knows when to be one or the other
Hott and mean or Ugly and sweet: ugly & sweet
Sexy or Just Cute: sexy AND cute haha =)
Arse or Abs: both =D
Hair or Hands: both
Dimples or Eyes: both !
Biceps or Calves/Thighs: idk but ... biceps ? 
Teeth or Nose(some people are just wierd) : teeth
Clean Shaven or Scruffy: clean
Rugged or Prim and Proper: prim and proper
Countryboy or Cityboy: city 
Date alone or With Friends: both
Mama's Boy or Rebel Without A Cause: in the middle

--Have You Ever--
Dumped a guy because he liked you too much: no
Loved a guy because he stalked you: noo
Loved a guy because he hated you: no
Asked your friend's crush out: nawwww
Lead a guy on for kicks: i dont think so
Asked a guy out purely because he was hott: nawww
Flirted with guys even though you had a boyfriend: possibly
Lied about not having a boyfriend: yeah
Lied about having one: yup
Cheated: no
Been Cheated on: not that i know of 
Had a crush on a gay guy: nooo

--Their Clothing (yes/no)--
Boxers?: yes
Briefs?: nooo ?
Hat?: yes
Skater Shoes?: i dont care
Pimp Shoes?: noo
Band Shirts?: no
Vintage shirts?: yes
Southpole/um..other thug clothes..?: yes
Dixie Outfitters/Big Johnsons?:  sure ?
Independent/DC?: yes
S&M/Little Devil?: wtf is that
Fox/Thor?: huh
Jeans or Shorts?:  jeans !

--Be Honest--
Would you ever date a guy for his money?:  naww..
Would you ever date a guy for his social status?: naww
Have you ever liked hanging out with your bf's friends more than him?: yup
Have you ever pretended to like somebody to make them feel better? ekk no
Have you called a girl a whore, when you were screwing lots of guys?: no. i dont screw guys in the first place
Do looks matter?: to some degree yeah
Are you honestly scared of being dumped?: no. it happens
Does size matter?: sure
Do you avoid 'situations' with ugly guys?: uhmm .. 
Are you ashamed to be seen with your ugly friends?: what ugly friends
Are you ashamed for being ashamed?(you better be): sure
Do you hide things from your crushes/guy friends/bf?: yeah
Do you really want a guy to say if those jeans make your butt look fat?: yeah.
Are you dissapointed when your bf doesn't say I love you right away?: no
Wanna be a virgin till marriage? yeah
Do you really love the guys everytime that you say it? i rarely say it to a boyfriend
Do you dream about your crushes/bfs/guy friends?: i barely dream
Would you makeout with a guy friend just to get it over with/curiosity?: noo..
Does this survey suck nuts? your moms nuts ! =)

69 confession questions

1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
anyone cool

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
it depends

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
both. depends on my mood

4. Do you take compliments well?
sure

5. Do you play Sudoku?
yup:)

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
maybe

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
no

9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
Monopoly?

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married would you?
would i what? i go after him NO. even if he was sexy pursuing someone if you are married cancels out your sexyness

12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
yeah

13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
be pursued i guess

14. Use three words to describe yourself?
short.

15. Do any songs make you cry?
if I'm sad for any reason, and a depressing song comes on, yeah I may cry

16. Are you continuing your education?
yeah

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
a water gun and that gun from the way-back-in-the-day nintendo game

18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
my family. if they're out of the house already then i'll get my box of memories. :)

19. How often do you read books?
not very often anymore

20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
all three

21. What is your favorite children's book?
i dont remember

22.What color are your eyes?
brown

23. How tall are you?
last i checked 5 feet 2 inches something

24. Where is your dream house located?
in the city

27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
yeah

28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
I never ate at Olive Garden =\

30. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
bramalea city centre

32. Do you like mustard?
yup on hot dogs

33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
sleep

34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
people say my dad .. but I dont know

35. How long does it take you in the shower?
depends

36. Can you do the splits?
never can never will

37. What movie do you want to see right now?
dreamgirls

39. What did you do for New Year's?
watch tv with my sisters

40. Do you think The Grudge was scary?
the japanese version ya

42. Do you own a camera phone?
no

43.Three wishes, what would it be?
1. to graduate
2. live a happy and prosperous life
3. be with my friends for a long time

44. Was your mom a cheerleader?
no

45. What's the last letter of your middle name?
o

46. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
somewhere warm

47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
depends

48. Do you like care bears?
sure

49. What do you buy at the movies?
movie tickets

50. Do you know how to play poker?
sure

51.Do you wear your seatbelt?
NO

52. What do you wear to sleep?
home clothes

53. Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
I dont know

54. How many meals do you eat a day?
many

55. Is your tongue pierced?
no

56. Do you always read MySpace bulletins?
no don't have a myspace

58. Do you like funny or serious people better?
depends on the situation

59. Ever been to L.A.?
no

60. Did you eat a cookie today?
no

61. Do you use cuss words in other languages?
haha yeeh

62. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
steal.

63. Do you hate chocolate?
no.

64. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
stuff

65. Are you a gullible person?
sometimes

66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
no but its nice to have one sometimes

67. If you could have any job (assuming you have the skills) what would it be?
english professor

68. Are you easy to get along with?
most of the time.

69. What is your favorite time of day?
i dunnno.

( message for you )













BE STRONG - DELTA GOODREM



Are you swimming upstream, in oceans of blue? 
Do you feel like your sinking? 
Are you sick of the rain, after all you've been through 
Well I know what you're thinking. 
When you can't take it, you can make it 
Sometime soon I know you will see, 

CHORUS: 
'Cause when you're in your darkest hour, 
And all of the light just fades away. 
And when you're like a single flower, 
Whose colours have turned to shades of grey, 
Well hang on 
Be strong. 
(Dada da dn da da) 
(Dada da dn da da) Dada da dn da da 
(Dada da dn da da da) Dada da dn da da da 

You're taking each step one day at a time, 
You can't lose your spirit. 
Well let live and let live, 
Forget and forgive, 
And it's all how you see it. 
And just remember, keep it together 
Don't you know you're never alone? 

CHORUS 

No you're not defeated ohh 
And soon you'll be smiling once again. 
Then you won't have to feel it, 
Let it go with the wind. 
Time passes us by, and know that you're allowed to cry 

CHORUS 

Oh woah huuh 
Hang on 
Hang on 
Be strong 
Da da da dn dada da 
Hold on and be strong.